I dream a dream

There has been one silly or... dream since I was young till now and forever. That's I wanna be a well-known person. As an only daughter from my mum, there were not kids to play with me. So, I was always alone, played alone and talked alone like a mad . And, I became fond of daydreaming. I dreamed alot. I dreamed about myself and put my image in different characters.

Since I was young, I never wanna be a doctor or engineer like other kids used to say to parents. You know what I always said to my mum, what I would be when I grew up. :)
I wanna be the president. Yeah, I used to write "President my name" at the first page of my diary.

When I was about 12, I loved learning History. I started learning about Edison, Einstein, Graham Bell, and their great inventions. At that time I wanna be scientists, because they are well-known. Their biographies and their inventions are recorded in my History textbook. I always imagine that my name could be in the book, next generation will have to learn about me.

When I was 14, I had a very big and secret ambition (no more secret now)--- I wanted to be the wife of Prince William. I have started to know about him from the magazines. Their lives are like life in paradise. At the time, I did not know much about citizenship or any requirement to become his wife. If somebody asks me what about now,,, I will say "No, and Never" because I wanna be famous not because of somebody else.

As soon as I finished taking my matric exams, I wanna go to abroad. I only knew about Singapore which is like there is only one country in the world. :) I dreamed alot about my future career Singapore. I will study Business Management there and blah blah. But, I could not.

But I chose totally a different course without any determination and passion. I did it for three years to get the degree.
I arrived here to study postgraduate course for the same field.

When I look around, most of the people are very satisfied with what they have got and happy their normal lives while struggling to fulfill their basic needs. As time goes by, I realize that some of my dreams are unrealistic and cannot happen. But, I still wanna be a well-known person before I die. I cannot know how many years I can live. In Buddhism, we believe that it is really difficult to get a life as a human being. While I am alive, I really want my dream comes true. But, I have no idea to make it come true. I think a girl in my age should know where she will go and what she will do for her future. Am I too greedy? Am I too dreamy? or Am I too stupid?

p.s. The title of the post is taken from the song, "I dream a dream"

Kiss from a rose

It was old and copied by Lay Pyuu.
I dunno why I listen this song for many times now.
I listen this song not because of it's lyrics or meaning,,,
But, I close my eyes and listen to it, all the melody and tune from the song are like flowing in my brain and body. Wonder how he can sing this song and wonder why black ppl are better and better in every sector. What about Asian ppl? What about ppl from my country?

September

Oops, I haven't written anything in August. I think I found a good house to stay for 6 months. But, I am still working on my dissertation and how I can finish it. I really want to get it done successfully but the time is quite limited now. :(
Now it is already in the middle of Sept. It's gonna one year on 16th Sept since I came UK. A lot of not only wonderful but disappointing things happened to me this year. Meeting nice people is the one of best rewards of my time while I stay away from my family. Although I've got that reward , I've found afew bad people.
Let's make a list of improvement that I have achieved.
Personality :

• much tidier :)
  
• know how to manage my time
• more frankly and friendly for friends
• learn a lot of different ppl characters
  
• no more scared and shy to go new places and meet new ppl.

Education:

• I've learnt a lot of things,
• found out a lot of things to learn in IT sector
• become more decisive to fight till the end

Bad things happened in this year:

• can't live without Internet, I think I overuse it
  
• sometimes terribly lazy and postpone to get things done
• too fussy for everything I've got

I shouldn't carry those things next year of living here. I still have time to correct it. Arr, one more thing I have to learn how to type in Burmese and write some short stories in my own language.
Ok let's get my project done first coz that's my first priority. I have to fight till the end. Fighting!!!